Just like that, it’s been one month since I decided to plunge myself into the unknown. I can’t describe it in just one word or so. More of, it’s like I’m discovering and planning things all over again:
when to start, where to start, how to start and all the uncertainties in between. It has been exciting, fun, weird, hard, easy, amazing – everything.
What a nice way to experience the whole process without worrying any other things such as 9am meetings, answering emails, auto notifications of the tools you’re using, overtime, weekend work and just enjoying the fact that I can wake up any time that I want and nap at midday.
The freedom that I’m experiencing at this moment, I’m thankful that it’s finally giving me and my body the break that I needed.
Yet, there’s this imaginary voice that I hear whenever I’m feeling scared. I can visualize myself asking: Am I a good boss of my own?
Imagine waking up and facing the mirror thinking all the hard, exhausting and never-ending decisions I need to make. Yup! Sometimes, I feel decision fatigue. I can only do so much within the day.
Unlike when we are employed, basically our day is already set. The meetings are scheduled in the calendar, agendas and action items are provided. Not this one. When you are your boss, you are the one who will dictate and decide on absolutely everything!
There are times that I ask myself: Is this the right decision, to leave an organization that gives me compensation on a regular basis and exchange it to something outside of my comfort zone?
Because I’m now in my courage zone, things are getting longer than I thought they would. Such as my patience, creativity, problem-solving.
The luxury of working for yourself means you can navigate your schedule freely. Yet, time is a finite resource and we’ll never have it as much as we think.
I thought 24hrs is already enough but sometimes, I wish I had more. Contrary to what people think, having time freedom can also cause anxiety if not backed-up with a concrete plan.
As per my progress, I was able to update my e-book to it’s 3rd version, optimize my website, plan my future contents. But most important of them all, I already prepared my mindset to accept blessings I’m about to receive.
I’m holding onto my faith and wishing for the Lord to surprise me! May Your will be done.
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